Today I would like to talk a bit about my current life since it won’t take nearly as long to talk about as my past life. I am 21 years old an I am engaged to a man named Will and I have a 9 month old son named Connor. Without them I would most likely be dead, which I will explain in a later blog. Connor and I live with my parents while Will lives about half an hour away. I have lost all of my friends, but I never really ever had any real friends to begin with. I am doing better than before in some areas of my life but I can only get so far in life with what I have right now. I still have a lot of stress in my life and it makes my life very difficult, but there is nothing I can do to change it right now. I don’t have a job, but I can’t really get one, either. I am considered totally disabled as well and receive social security because of it. That is the only way I can pay for Connor’s needs. If I didn’t have that, i would have been forced to give him up for adoption, which would have devastated me. I was lucky, however, and started receiving social security when i was 4 months pregnant. If you are wondering why my parents wouldn’t be able to help financially if I wasn’t receiving benefits, my answer is because they cannot afford it, either as the only income they have is my dad’s social security since he is also disabled. They are also struggling to pay bills and even keep the house because they get so little. Each month, they have to choose which few bills will be paid and which will have to wait. They are also over $100,000 in debt. Hopefully that cleared it up. But as I said, I got lucky. Well, I believe I have said enough for now and I shall write another time, tomorrow perhaps. We shall see.